– by Kiki Toao –
During a healing I received at La Botanica I was so fortunate to experience a very specific kind of love, the kind of love I never got from my parents. It just seems a couple of simple words: The Love I Never Got From My Parents. Jeeez, try to get your head around that. But that’s how it was.
You see, I’m not feeling gloriously blissed out or anything. It’s a very subtle change and I wonder if it will fade. It feels as if I’ve been given a small and precious gift, the kind of gift you put on a nice, velvet cushion, and it needs attending to, because you’re afraid you might lose it if you don’t give it that special attention. I understand if this sounds vague and mysterious to you, but to me it makes a big difference and it encourages me to change a couple of things in my behaviour.
As Padrino put it: Spirit doesn’t want me to keep digging in my Underworld, that’s done. He said: “For some it’s important to keep going down, up, down, up and down again. But that’s not your Path”. For a couple of days I’ve been wondering what that’s supposed to mean. No more Shamanism for me? Because that’s what shamans do, right? Go Up and Down? And here I am again, worrying too much.
On a side note: Espiritismo rocks!
It goes by the name: Espiritista Baby!