When I woke up this morning I realized we don’t need other shamans, artists or any other external resources to justify the existence of The Shamaniac Movement.
We got our own stories to tell.
During my stay here in Costa Rica, where I’m helping out Jade Wah’oo Grigori with recovery from heart surgery and being taught about shamanism, I’m absorbing an incredible amount of information and a lot of stories have come up.
In the light of the conversations I had with Jade, I realize I need to get over some inhibitions in order to fulfill the role I see for myself as the creator of The Shamaniac Movement. Not by saying: “Oh, I’ve got a bit of experience in shamanism now myself, so I’m gonna teach you all about it”. No, it’s about recognizing the good shamanism has done for me and my loved ones.
The most important thing it has done for me is make me believe in my own power again. Now I see my own ability to connect a couple of dots, put my own experiences in context with shamanism, I would simply like to show you what it could mean for you. Sometimes I see my friends stuck in life, struggling with whatever block they’re experiencing. And then I just feel the urge to say: perhaps visiting a shaman can help you come out of this situation. Most of the people I talk to are very reluctant, sceptic and even scared. But I just tell them: “Hey, whenever you’re ready, it’s right there for you”.
So this is why I want to share this with you: it would just feel like a total waste of resources if I didn’t. It’s just one of those small things one can do and it actually feels like the responsibility I’ve got as the founder of The Shamaniac Movement and as a shaman apprentice. It feels like a calling (call me a missionary if you wish) to remind you of the existence of shamanism. A lot of people would just call it ‘make belief’. I’d like to say, here’s what we do: make believe.
Until a couple of years ago, I spent my whole life on trying to adjust to society, in order to be considered ‘normal’. I’ve always felt the pressure of society’s structure and always questioned (if not directly opposed) authority. I just couldn’t help myself when being confronted with some manager, family member or friend who was trying to convince me that “our system is just the way it is and you will just have to accept that for a fact”. I hated it and just couldn’t the stand the ease and the self-evidence in that expression.
I remember numerous occasions in which I got confronted with imposed authority, it made proverbial bull’s horns grow on my head while fiercely going straight into this red cloth of oppression, in a state of sincere anger about the injustice being done to myself and the people around me. No matter the risks involved, lose my job, temper or face, I would, and always will, go right against that flow of rules and passionately choose for speaking up for myself as a human being and just give up whatever is at financial or relational stake, for the sake of integrity.
One of the main themes in the conversations with Jade is anarchy. I actually never considered myself an anarchist. I pay my taxes nicely, I still see the benefits in that for society, education and care for the less abled or impoverished people, and I don’t see myself doing maintenance on roads. So yeah, to put a bit of money in the system once in a while still makes sense to me. However, to just blindly accept things the way they are, that’s not my style and that’s an understatement. I’d rather set something on fire than just fall on my knees and swallow it. Can I say that? Yes I can and I must, because I know that’s what it feels like to many people.
Now, to show people it doesn’t have to be that way, that’s where shamanism comes in in my story. To quote Jade: “It’s not about questioning authority, it’s about questioning the structure which is telling you: “this is how it must be”.
One of the roles a shaman can take is see through the mazes of reality, to make you see how you can do it, whatever it may be, yourself. A shaman can heal you from damage that’s been done to you in the past, or destructive forces you’ve been calling onto yourself by your own behaviour. That’s just a couple of things a shaman can help you with, I’m putting it oversimplified here.
The way I see it, the role of a shaman can be of greater value than just being an alternative for psychotherapy. Here’s is what shamanism can do for you:
See through institutionalized authoritarian structures, regain power to make the change, raise willingness to speak up for integrity, stand up in the face of injustice, and claim one’s social, political or spiritual authority rather than look into some other culture doctrine to tell you what It is.